Lord Help Me I’m Someone’s Mommy…

From the time she (my daughter) wakes up until the time she goes to bed I’m going, doing, fixing, cleaning, teaching, explaining, fussing, dressing, bathing, combing, organizing, checking, and every 2 hours or so I fix again, clean again, teach again, explain again, fuss; dress; bath; comb; organize; and check ALL again.

Now add…
entrepreneur
manager
WIFE
daughter
sister
friend
associate

I am constantly trying to understand how some women love doing all of this and do more…?
I also try to remain empathetic toward women who can’t have children, toward individuals who have more than 1 child (how in the world do you do it), and to anyone who is a single parent (also how in the world do you do it). I can’t wrap my brain around it for the life of me so then I ask myself am I a good mother? I’d like to think so because the outward appearance and the skills show that I put in time however in the back of my mind I disagree.

Good moms make their kids their world right?

They…
Bake
Sew
Cook
Clean
Iron

OK, so maybe I watch too much TV lol, don’t see how I barely have enough time to; oh wait that’s right I multi-task. So while I’m…
Working
Cooking
Cleaning
Talking
Teaching
Explaining
Fussing
Organizing
Straightening
Bathing
Checking
Combing
Reading
Watching
Listening
Counseling
Reminding
Forgetting
Writing
Typing
Asking
Wiping
&
Folding

I email, listen to music, watch TV, download, paint, build, work, create, schedule, and pray; and while I’m doing all this I wonder If I’m doing enough, if my day was productive, how I will finish things on my list (which by the way is never ending), try to catch up with friends, spend time with family, and dare I say…relax?

Is it wrong to admit I’d rather have a nanny and be the one to do all the fun stuff with my daughter like…
Shop
Travel
Visit Friends & Family
and uh Shop & Travel

did
I
say
Shop?

Well I know one thing even though I can imagine life without motherly responsibilities I definitely can’t imagine life without my daughter. Does that redeem some of my feelings about the weight of the responsibilities?

Not sure…

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