From the time she (my daughter) wakes up until the time she goes to bed I’m going, doing, fixing, cleaning, teaching, explaining, fussing, dressing, bathing, combing, organizing, checking, and every 2 hours or so I fix again, clean again, teach again, explain again, fuss; dress; bath; comb; organize; and check ALL again.
I am constantly trying to understand how some women love doing all of this and do more…?
I also try to remain empathetic toward women who can’t have children, toward individuals who have more than 1 child (how in the world do you do it), and to anyone who is a single parent (also how in the world do you do it). I can’t wrap my brain around it for the life of me so then I ask myself am I a good mother? I’d like to think so because the outward appearance and the skills show that I put in time however in the back of my mind I disagree.
Good moms make their kids their world right?
OK, so maybe I watch too much TV lol, don’t see how I barely have enough time to; oh wait that’s right I multi-task. So while I’m…
I email, listen to music, watch TV, download, paint, build, work, create, schedule, and pray; and while I’m doing all this I wonder If I’m doing enough, if my day was productive, how I will finish things on my list (which by the way is never ending), try to catch up with friends, spend time with family, and dare I say…relax?
Is it wrong to admit I’d rather have a nanny and be the one to do all the fun stuff with my daughter like…
Visit Friends & Family
and uh Shop & Travel
Well I know one thing even though I can imagine life without motherly responsibilities I definitely can’t imagine life without my daughter. Does that redeem some of my feelings about the weight of the responsibilities?